Full-Blown Agony: A Personal Battle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headache Syndrome

It was a overcast Monday morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a intense pain bloomed behind my right eye. It was followed by quick stabs, like lightning bolts. As each class came and went, the discomfort subsided and then came back with increased force. Multiple times that day I left a teaching assistant with activities and hurried to the staff bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took ibuprofen, but the pain remained unbearable.

The headaches appeared frequently that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an annual cycle. September and October were the most severe, then February and March. I could predict the routine: aura in the shower, early pangs on the train, full-blown agony in the classroom by 9.30am. In late 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a neurologist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition typically begin with severe discomfort around one eye that persists for several hours.

About 1 in 1000 people suffer by the disorder, and men are more often affected. Cluster headaches usually begin with abrupt, excruciating pain focused on one eye that reaches its peak within a short time and continues for as long as three hours. Attacks come in clusters, daily or multiple times a day, and are accompanied by red or watery eyes, sagging eyelids or facial sweating. I have an episodic type, which occurs in periodic bouts; others have chronic attacks, defined by the absence of long symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper scored the pain at 9.7 10, more severe than bone fractures or other conditions. Another found a significant percentage of cluster headache patients experienced thoughts of self-harm during bouts; the figure fell to 4% when they were pain-free.

Val Hobbs, 74, a chronic patient from Pembrokeshire, isn't surprised. Her attacks began when she was a toddler. “I would throw myself on the ground and bang my head. That was put down to being spoiled,” she says. Her condition worsened through her youth. Drinking in her adolescence, similar to several triggers, made things more intense. After having sherry at her graduation party, she remembers barely being able to see on the bus home.

Her relatives often mistook her episodes as drunken behavior. Understanding eventually came from her parent and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs took clerical work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist neurology center.

Nevertheless, the inability to plan daily activities around erratic pain took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as flaky as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her family during the incapacitation caused by the most severe episodes. “It steals from you of the small liberties we don't appreciate until they're gone,” she says. She remembers obtaining tickets for a significant concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described across history. “The earliest description of headache originates from the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write authors in a publication on the topic. They attributed the disease to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Ancient healing records suggest unusual remedies for what some experts would classify as a migraine. In the middle ages, severe headache was identified as a distinct condition, with therapies ranging from bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a Dutch physician who provided the initial detailed description of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he speaks of a patient “suffering with a very intense headache occurring and vanishing daily at specific hours”.

The disorder were only officially recognised by international headache societies in 1988. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a major artery that delivers blood to the head. Prominent experts in diagnosing the disorder explain this.

In 1998, scientists published the results of a research project for which they had induced cluster headaches in patients and monitored the episodes in a imaging machine. The results, featured in a prominent medical publication, showed activation of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human circadian rhythm, when patients were in pain, and a deactivation when they recovered.

In spite of such advances, identification remains slow. Jamie Charteris's attacks began in 1986 and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had sinus problems; he had four surgeries before finally being diagnosed in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Specialists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are rarely seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and low, but not in agony,” a doctor says. He proceeds by eliminating other primary head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before confirming the disorder. A detailed patient history is crucial: on which side do symptoms occur? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as alcohol? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help verify the diagnosis. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first arrive to A&E or are given inadequate therapies.

A charity trustee, in her late seventies, has suffered from cluster headaches for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since recent years. When she was in her twenties, she had her molars pulled because dentists misinterpreted her symptoms. She thinks the dental profession still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a charity, it was she who responded. I remember calling a support line during an bout in early 2021; a calm volunteer guided them through oxygen therapy and medication until the attack eased.

National guidelines on management advise that patients are offered high-flow oxygen therapy and/or a specific medication delivered by injection. No oral painkillers or opioids should be used. Prophylactic choices include a blood pressure medication, which apparently helps manage the bouts of well-known individuals.

But consultant specialists argue the official guidelines need revising to reflect a more defined clinical pathway and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For periodic patients, timing is everything: “The length of the cycle dictates the treatment.” Brief bouts with infrequent episodes are managed with acute treatment alone. Longer or more intense bouts require preventative medications such as certain drugs, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an procedure into the area of the head where the pain is that reduces nerve signals.

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